homesick

well, as it has turned out i finally got homesick.


i call home almost everyday to talk to my mom, dad, sister, stevie and my grandparents.
but its not the same as being home in their presence
especially missing my puppies (luckily one of the guys up here is gone for a couple weeks so my roomie and i have been dog sitting him, Fella...coolest dog ever) but its no Lola and Skya


last night i physically felt ill from being homesick, i guess its probably anxeity too, i do get to go home in 10 days for mothers day!


i feel somewhat emo/depressed lately..which for me...isnt good, cause im on meds to help that but i think its just a slump im in and i will get over, i always do.


trying to get healthy again now that im finally used to this climate, and life style im not physically sick anymore, time to exercise and eat healthy.  been going for long runs everyday they get easier and easier, and being in this nature filled area it makes it easy to get out of the house and explore! i cant wait for summer so i can go mountain biking. i also need to start swimming more, the pool has been closed for a week but as soon as it re opens ill be there.


i have been coooking alot, i feel like a house wife, but its okay cause i love my roomie and we both pitch in equally, im teaching her to cook as well! it sucks not being able to just run to the store to get fresh meat, or fruit or anything but i have found ways to live without.


music has been keeping me sane these days. i need to download some more feel good quiet music! but everytime i feel like crap and im at home, i pick up my guitar and start playing, or pick up my lyrics journal and write a song.


favorite song currently is Glitter in the Air by pink.

"Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?

Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?

Have you ever looked fear in the face

And said I just don't care?


It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn
The thunder before lightning, the breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?


Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?


It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table, the walk before the run
The breath before the kiss and the fear before the flames

Have you ever felt this way?
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee, calling me sugar
You called me sugar


Have you ever wished for an endless night?

Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight

Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself

Will it ever get better than tonight? Tonight"